Its all around we are all energy and sometimes I feel that it waivers thin and I must have more of it  - its so precious - but in order to have more I must make it by resting and keeping a clean diet. As some of you know I had long suffered with Crohn’s Disease. I was first diagnosed and hospitalized at 19 due to deep ulcerations on my insides. I was put on many medications and was re hospitalized again and again throughout my 20s. I endured IVs of steroids and 22 pills a day for years until my bones became fragile and fractures ensued. My immune system was shot and working 3 jobs to pay the rent on my Manhattan apartment left me beyond spent and depleted. I had an 11 a day pain killer habit just to get me through the day to work and home. And one day after a long stint in the hospital I was sent home and my family was to prepare for the worst. My father lay next to me and said goodbye “You were such a good kid.” as he fell asleep next to me. I prayed for lightness to come since the body I was inhabiting was no good anymore. I said my own goodbyes to the world silently and off I went to the light-well a few things were explained to me there and here I am on my journey for health and happiness after many years off meds and out of hospitals. My journey has taken me to many places, to many people, and back to myself. Once I started looking deep within I began to piece it all together. Its funny that I wrote songs at some of lowest points in the hospital in this wise knowing voice and I dint fully understand their meaning until years later-my own songs!